Tuesday, June 01, 2010

i is miss engineer

huh. tajuk macam kerek. macam nak berlagak je. GTH. tak suke, takyah bace. its very easy hokeh. tekan je tande x kat atas kat belah kanan. taknak tekan? shut up and just read. today genap sudeh setahun i as an engineer. seyesly, cant believe it. this is first time betahan lame dgn 1 company. actualy i start keje early than 1 june 2009. i work as engineer since may 2009. habis je exam, tak sempat nak setelkan presentation, aku dapat offer dr 1 company. tak perlu la aku sebutkan ye. i just grab that opportunity coz that time i think klau aku memilih sgt, nti kot2 lps ni x mrh rezqi camne? aku keje dgn contractor. duduk site lagi. xtualy aku sgt la tak prefer utk duk site. panas hokeh. bedebu lagi. hehehe. gedik! luckily, i got an offer from consultant which is tmpt yg aku keje skrg ni la. mase keje kat site, mmg aku main2. maklumla. wat bnda yg kite tak minat. dah la busan. aku sorg je pompuan. tak de geng. klau dah busan sgt tahap gaban, habis indon2 kat site tu aku ajk borak. bos aku pandang2 jeling2 kat aku. fedulik. ape ku kesah? aku dah busan tahap nak mati. sonok gak kadang2 melayan indon2 ni. i mean leh tau ssh sng hdp diorg smpai diorg merantau jauh2 cr rezqi. kdg2 aku sesaje tnye pasal artis2 kat sane. ungu la radja la. aku tau indon2 tu kencing aku kadang2. ingat aku tak bace magazine ke oi. tak pe la. aku layan je la. jnji ade kawan nak teman aku yg suke bercakap ni. hehehe.

1 june 2009, aku start keje kat consultant. mase dapat offer tu mmg sgt2 bersyukur coz i really want this job. lagipon mase interview, aku giler confident akan dapat keje ni. hehehe. masa interview, mak ai... lame giler. siap kene wat essay. aku bersungguh menjawab. kalah macam nak jawab exam. panjang menjela2 aku wat. dah macam jawab paper MUET. sebab essay aku la bos aku berminat nak amek aku. my bos told me hokeh mase aku dah lame sket keje sini. kembang la aku mase kene puji kan. mmuahahaha.

xtualy, i never wished to become an engineer. tetibe je dah 'ter'amek engineering. boley? so, i slowly to love and like the engineering course i took. alhamdulillah, finally i can accept it. lagipon tak sanggup la aku nak spend another 5 years utk study ape yg aku suke. huhu. bile dah keje ni, the most important thing is exprience. the more you have, the better. ape yang kau blaja kat buku tu bukan la tak gune langsung tapi for me tak sampai 50% pon gune. padahal ape yg aku keje skrg ni sgt la related with my course. siap major in this field lagi. mase mule2 kerja, memang terkial2. i have to learn everything. from A to Z. all software has never been taught. i must be fast learner to learn everything in a short time. tak dapat sume takpe tapi atleast 70%. memang susah. honestly, aku penah give up. aku penah rase nak htr je resign letter trs. lg la mase mule2 keje, so many thing happen. terlampau banyak personal problem. stress kerja + personal problem memang overload la kan. sampai aku menangis. then, i talk to myself. i'm not a great engineer. but as long as i'm wiiling to learn, insyaAllah i will be a great engineer in the future.

sometime i have to be very workaholic person. its all because the deadline is just around the corner. mase tu, memang stress tak hengat la. mase itvw beria kate can work under pressure and can meet tight deadline. mase tu tak penah merase, boleh la poyo. sekarang? hamek ko. padan muke. tipu la if i said tak pernah rase nak tukar keje. banyak kali kot. just blom ade rezqi ade. if i'm looking for new opportunity, i have to make sure its better than what i'm doing rite now. bukan tak penah dapat ofer dr company lain. aku penah beberapa kali dapat ofer dr company yg lebih besar dr tmpt aku keje skrg n gaji yg lbh besar dr aku dpt sekarang. bukan beza sikit2. tapi betol2 berbeza la. people keep on asking y i didnt accept the offer. what i want is not only best pay. i want satisfaction in my work. memang company aku skrg ni tak la sebesar mane. tapi ilmu yg aku dapat kat sini, tak ternilai. cthnye mcm ni. software that my com used, worldwide hokeh. klau ko dah xpert, mane2 pon ko leh keje. tak sume com yg dlm field yg same gune software2 ni. ade yg masih gunekan manual calculation hokeh. n 1 of the sotware, com aku je yg gune kat malaysia ni. aku rase itu sgt la hebat. so, i think its ok la klau gaji aku tak seberapa skrg ni. jnji aku leh shoping n byr pape yg patut. kire ok la. its better for me to stay here n learn whatever i can and i can demand in future compare with aku pindah keje dgn gaji yg lumayan skrg tanpa dapat expand kan my skill n knowledge. degree gntung kat jamban je la kan.

huarghh. panjang giler siot aku menulis. dah macam jawab karangan. ikt kan hati memang nak tulis banyak2 lagi. org kata ikut hati, mati. so, its better la aku stop. finally, as conclusion aku nak jadi engineer yg berjaya n bergaya. hehehe. gaya itu penting. gaya, mutu, keunggulan. HAHAHAHA.


*ni meja aku. bersepah giler. sume kertas2 tu aku kene setelkan calculation. ade sesape nak tolong x? ;p*

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